WISHED.

today, for the first time, i wished something new.

i wished, not for us to find peace, not for these feelings to go away... no, my normal wishes were forgotten today.

today, i wished that you knew what you did to me.

and i hope it hits you soon.

because when it does, when it finally catches up to you, it's going to hit hard. it'll knock you down to your hands and knees, i promise.

and

then

maybe you'll regret it.

maybe there, on the ground, you'll understand.

then, maybe, you'll stop being so arrogant and realize that your actions affect the people around you,

and

more,

they affect the people who love you; they affect me.

today, i wished.

and i hope to hope's end that this one comes true.