RUN.

i told you that i hate them,
the ones who simply acted.
you told me you agreed,
it was much better to be attracted
to people who were real
and told the truth about
everything around them,
leaving others with no doubt.

i told you that i was with you
but then you said goodbye.
i thought that i would crumble
i thought that i would die.
but now that i can see you
from a place farther away
i realize that i get better
with every passing day.

i told you you were perfect
but now i see i lied
it's not my fault, however,
but now, look, we're tied.
you act now like those people
i said i couldn't stand
the ones i said i hated
the ones with whom you planned.

so go on with your life now
however fake it may be
because i'm sick and tired
of repeating my sad plea.
i tell my friends we're over,
how i wish that we were done.
i vainly long to hate you
but i cant, so i run.


[9.19.2009]