FEAR.

don't be scared, you whispered. i'll always be here for you.

i'm scared.

i'm scared for what i have to lose, and what i have to deal with.

i'm scared of not having anyone to turn to, to hug, to kiss. no one to console me and hold me and listen to me complain. no one to think that its cute when i cry.

i'm scared of missing you. of the gap thats left in me when you're not here.

i'm scared of letting you go. of not finding anyone that loves me like that, or that i love like this.

i'm scared of the memories that won't leave me alone. the ones where you're cute and we're perfect. the moments i never wanted to end.

i'm scared of my exhaustion, yet sleeping isn't peaceful either. you haunt my dreams, you haunt my presence.

i'm scared of the future. because i don't see you in it.

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