DISAPPEARING ACT.

she'd love nothing more than to pull a disappearing act. she wants to fade into the wood work, taking with her all of her problems, stresses, and pains. she wants to evaporate into nothingness where everything is peaceful and nothing pulls on her.

she's losing control and spiraling into thoughts that dig into her mind and rip away vital pieces of her soul. she doesn't know what she wants - other than that she wants to dissolve. she wants to see who will care when she disappears and who won't. she wants to be left alone with her memories and secrets, but they won't let her. good or bad, there are few people who keep her afloat. people she can't melt away from. they anchor themselves to her in the way a small child clings to his mother.

she wants nothing more than to pull a disappearing act, but she's not the kind that disappears. so maybe, instead, she can work on erasing him.

[11.3.2009]