FALLING.

people say that they fell in love as if it's some graceful transformation of the heart.

people lie.

falling in love is anything but graceful. it's not innocent or lovely or anything like that. no, falling in love, and i'm talking about really falling in love, is the complete opposite. falling in love is barreling towards a brick wall at a hundred miles per hour in a tiny, two-door convertible and realizing that someone has cut the brakes... it's hoping that somehow you come out of the wreck in one piece. falling in love is being pushed off of the tallest building in the world and hoping that the landing is not really as bad as they say it is. falling in love is uncontrollable, terrifying, and consuming.

and it starts all over again the next time you see that one person you love.

falling in love is not something you have control over, but it may be the most important thing you do.

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